I spent the first three days of this week at Georgia State University. I gave a lecture in their Distinguished Speaker series and several guest lectures to classes in GSU's Department of Early Childhood and Elementary Education. All meals were with students and faculty. It was a full schedule, but I enjoyed and learned from all of it and am sharing one part of it here.
Just before I got on my plane for Atlanta on Monday morning (August 31, 2015), I learned (via Facebook) that the author, Deborah Wiles, wished she'd known I was going to be there, because she wanted to meet me. I didn't know her work at that point.
Deborah was able to get an invitation to dinner on Tuesday evening. There were five of us (three professors, Deborah, and myself). I've had meals with writers before, but don't recall one like that one. I was, in short, rather stunned by most of it.
Deborah's experience of it is different from mine. Early Wednesday, she provided a recap on her Facebook page (note: sometimes that page is viewable, sometimes it isn't; no idea why!):
Last night's dinner at Niramish in Little Five Points, ATL. I got excited when I saw that Debbie Reese was speaking to students in the School of Education at Georgia State and I... um... invited myself to dinner. No I didn't. But I did squee a liitle (a lot) about the fact that she was coming. I was invited to dinner and was ecstatic about the invite, so much so that I brought everyone a book and foisted it into their hands. They were so gracious. I loved talking about children's literature and who gets to tell the story about careful, close reading, and about thoughtful critical discourse (for starters). I have long admired Debbie's work and have been getting to know my teaching friends at the College of Education & Human Development, Georgia State University this year, whom I admire more with each encounter... Thank you the invitation and generosity! Rhina Williams, Cathy Amanti, Debbie Reese, and Thomas Crisp.
Deborah, you read my blog and my work, so you know I'm pretty forthcoming. I'll be that way here, too. When you brought up the who-can-write topic at dinner, there was an edge in your words as you spoke, at length, about it and criticisms of REVOLUTION. Since then, I've spent hours thinking about that dinner. I don't think we had a discussion, but I am willing to have that discussion with you. You indicate that white writers feel they can't get their books published if their books are about someone outside the writers identity. With regard to non-Native writers writing books about Native people, I don't see what you're describing. What do you think... do you want to talk more about this? On my blog, perhaps?
And she responded:
Sure, we can talk more about that. I want to make sure I am clear about what I said (or tried to say). I don't think white writers can't get their books published if they write outside their culture, not at all... these books are published all the time. I've published them. We were bouncing around quite a bit at that dinner, topic to topic. Part of what I said was that I got push-back in certain circles for writing in Ray's (black) voice in REVOLUTION, but I know that voice is authentic to 1960s Mississippi because I lived there and heard it all my life and wrote it that way. Sometimes in our (collective) zeal to "get it right" we point at a problem that isn't there. I'm happy to talk more on your blog! Thanks for thinking about it with me.
So, here's my post about that dinner. Obviously I wasn't taking notes. Deborah's comment above ("what I said (or tried to say)") demonstrates that neither of us is sure of what was said. This is my recollection and reflections on the evening.
On arriving, Deborah immediately began by talking to me about my work, saying that writers read what I say. She specifically mentioned my work on Ann Rinaldi's My Heart is on the Ground and how that made an impact on writers.
I was, of course, glad to hear that, but then she turned the conversation to current discussions in children's literature, saying that this is a dangerous time for writers, because they are being told that they can't write outside their cultural group and that if they do write outside their culture, their books won't get published. Note that in her Facebook comment above, she said these books are getting published and uses her book as an example. I recall saying that I think these are exciting times, because we need diverse voices. It was that exchange--with her characterizing these times as dangerous and me describing them as exciting--that set the tone for the rest of the evening.
Deborah started talking about her book, Revolution. She said that she'd shown Jackie Woodson some of the work she was doing on that book, or that she'd talked with her about the African American character, Ray, in Revolution, or maybe it was that she'd talked with Jackie about white writers giving voice to black characters. Whatever it was, the outcome was that Deborah had a green light (my words, not hers) from Jackie. I don't doubt any of it, but I am uneasy with that sort of report. It implies an endorsement from someone who isn't there to confirm it. I'm very attentive to this because, knowingly or not, writers who do that are, in my view, appropriating that person in a way that I find inappropriate. If Deborah could point to a statement Jackie made about Revolution, that would be different.
Deborah went on to to tell us that she had lived in Mississippi and that the voice she gave to Ray is based on what she heard when she lived there. But, she said, "fervent" people didn't like what she did. Someone (me or one of the professors at the table) asked her who the "fervent" people are, and she said that she wasn't going to say if I was going to tell them.
I was taken aback by that and responded immediately with "well don't say then, because I will tell them." She went on to say that it is SLJ's Heavy Medal blog, and that Heavy Medal discussions are dangerous, that they have too much power in terms of influencing what people think.
Deborah seemed angry. She was talking at me, not with me. I don't recall saying anything at all in response to what she said about Heavy Medal and fervent people.
I share my recollection of the dinner--not to solicit sympathy from anyone or to embarrass Deborah--but to convey my frustration with the incredible resistance Deborah's words and emotion represent within the larger context of children's literature.
The who-can-write conversation is not new. In 1996, Kathryn Lasky wrote an article titled "To Stingo with Love: An Author's Perspective on Writing outside One's Culture." In it, she wrote that "self-styled militias of cultural diversity are beginning to deliver dictates and guidelines about the creation and publishing of literature for a multicultural population of readers" (p. 85 in Fox and Short's Stories Matter: The Complexity of Cultural Authenticity in Children's Literature, published in 2003 by the National Council of Teachers of English).
I count myself in that "self styled militia." One need only look at the numbers the Cooperative Children's Book Center at the University of Wisconsin puts out each year to see that we've made little progress:
CCBCs data shows some small gains here and there, but overall, things haven't changed much. One reason, I think, is the lack of diversity within the major publishing houses. I think there's a savior mentality in the big publishing houses and a tendency to view other as less-than. For some it is conscious; for others it is unconscious. All of it can--and should be--characterized as well-intentioned, but it is also unexamined and as such, reflects institutional racism. The history of this country is one that bestows privilege on some and not on others. That history privileges dominant voices over minority ones, from the people at the table in those publishing houses to the voices in the books they publish. That--I believe--is why there's been no progress. Part of what contributes to that lack of progress is that too many people feel sympathy for white writers rather than stepping away from the facts on who gets published.
At the end of the meal, Deborah brought out copies of her books to give to us. I got the picture book, Freedom Summer but it felt odd accepting the gift, given the tensions of the evening. I think she was not aware of that tension. She ended the evening by praising my blog but the delivery of that praise had a distinct edge. She banged the table with her fist as she voiced that praise.
I hope that my being at that dinner with Deborah that evening and in the photograph she posted on Facebook aren't construed by anyone as an endorsement of her work. Yesterday, I went to the library to get a copy of Revolution, because, Deborah said she is working on a book that will be set in Sacramento, and, she said, it will include the Native occupation of Alcatraz. I want to see what her writing is like so that I can be an informed reader when her third book comes out.
Before going to the library, I looked online to see if there was a trailer for it. In doing that, I found a video of Deborah reading aloud at the National Book Award Finalists Reading event. Watching it, I was, again, stunned. She read aloud from chapter two. Before her reading, she told the audience what happened in chapter one. The white character, Sunny, is swimming in a public pool, at night. She touches something soft and warm, which turns out to be a black boy. She screams, he runs away. Then she and Gillette (another white character) take off too, but by then, the deputy is there. She tells him what happened. The last lines of that chapter are these (page 52):
There was a colored boy in our pool. A colored boy. And I touched him, my skin on his skin. I touched a colored boy. And then he ran away, like he was on fire.As readers of AICL know, I keep children foremost in my mind when I analyze a book. In this case, how will a black child read and respond to those lines? And, what will Deborah think of my focus--right now--on that part of her book? I haven't read the whole book. No doubt, people who read AICL will be influenced by my pointing out that part of the book. Will Deborah think I am, like the people at Heavy Medal, "dangerous"?
Deborah said, above, that "Sometimes in our (collective) zeal to "get it right" we point at a problem that isn't there." She means the people who criticized her for Ray's voice in Revolution. The dinner and Deborah's remarks are the latest in a string of events in which people in positions of power object to "fervent" people. Jane Resh Thomas did it in a lecture at Hamline and Kate Gale did it in an article at Huffington Post.
I'll wind down by saying (again), that I've spent hours thinking about that dinner. It seemed--seems--important that I write about it for AICL. This essay is the outcome of those hours of thinking. I was uncomfortable then, and I'm uncomfortable now. I wanted to say more, then, but chose to be gracious, instead. I'm disappointed in my reluctance then, and now. I don't know where it emanates from. Why did I choose not to make a white writer uncomfortable? Is Deborah uncomfortable now, as she reads this? Are you (reader) uncomfortable? If so, why? Was Deborah worried about my comfort, then, or now? Does it matter?!
I can get lost in those questions, but must remember this: I do the work I do, not for a writer, but for the youth who will read the work of any given writer. For the ways it will help--or harm--a reader's self esteem or knowledge base.
The imagined audience for Revolution isn't an African American boy or girl. It is primarily a white reader, and, while the othering of "the colored boy" in chapter two may get dealt with later in the book, all readers have to wait. Recall the words of Anonymous, submitted to AICL as a comment about Martina Boone's Compulsion. They have broad application:
I find the idea of a reader -- particularly a child -- having to wait to see herself humanized an inherently problematic one. Yes, it might accurately reflect the inner journey many white people take, but isn't the point that our dehumanizing views were always wrong? And therefore, why go back and re-live them? Such ruminations could definitely be appropriate in an all-white anti-racist group, in which the point is for white people to educate each other, but any child can pick up a book, and be hurt--or validated--by what's inside. Asking marginalized readers to "wait" to be validated is an example of white dominance as perpetuated by well-intentioned white folks.It is long past time for the industry to move past concerns over what--if anything--dominant voices lose when publishers actually choose to publish and promote minority voices over dominant ones. It is long past time to move past that old debate of who-can-write. Moving past that debate means I want to see publishers actually doing what Lasky feared so that more books by minority writers are actually published.
In 1986, Walter Dean Myers wrote that he thought we (people of color) would "revolutionize" the publishing industry. We need a revolution, today, more than ever. Some, obviously, won't join this revolution. Some will see it as discriminatory against dominant voices but I choose to see it as responsive to children and the millions of mirrors that they need so that we reach a reality where the publishing houses and the books they publish look more like society. In this revolution, where will you be?
To close, I'll do two things. First is a heartfelt thank you to Dr. Thomas Crisp at Georgia State University, for years of conversation about the state of children's literature, and, for assistance in writing and thinking through this essay. He was at that dinner in Atlanta. Second is a question for Deborah. Why did you want to meet me? Usually, when people want to meet me, there's a quality to the meeting that was missing from our dinner in Atlanta. There's usually a meaningful discussion of something I've said, or, about the issues in children's literature. That didn't happen in Atlanta. In the end, I am left wondering why you wanted to meet me.
Update, September 6, 2015
Several readers submitted comments. Please read them. They are quite thoughtful. Deborah Wiles submitted a comment, too. I am inserting it here, in the body of the original post, for your convenience.
Debbie Wiles said...
Hi, Debbie, I just want to say that I enjoyed meeting you on Tuesday evening, and was looking forward to it all day. I don't believe these are dangerous times to be publishing for young people, I don't believe writers are being censored by publishers in what they write (that's not my experience), and I do believe writers are getting published when they write outside their cultures. I did say that wielding power for personal gain can be dangerous, and that thoughtful, critical, informed discourse is important. My experience of the conversation was different from yours. We bounced around all over the place with different topics, weaving in and out. Everyone laughed a lot. I had a good time. I was glad to be included. I agreed with you that these are exciting times to be publishing! They are. I still think you should write the book about the Occupation of Alcatraz. My best, Debbie Wiles
A similar conversation regarding this topic took place on Twitter yesterday. B. R. Sanders responded to it. Please read A Response to Colten Hibbs and Maggie Stiefvater on Writing the Other
And--if you're having trouble submitting a comment, you can send it directly to me and I'll post it on your behalf.
Update, September 6, 2015 - evening
Maggie Stiefvater wrote a response to the pushback she got on her post on writing the other. I highly recommend it.
Fascinating and honest post, Debbie.
ReplyDeleteI've got so many thoughts about this piece, and at Debbie's invitation, I'm going to try to sort them out:
ReplyDeleteI first want to appreciate the generosity and courage it took for Debbie to write this; she is doing so at some cost to herself (she tweeted about the "knots in her stomach" as she wrote this), out of her deep commitment to the children. I can only imagine that it's exhausting.
As I see it, what Debbie is offering our community in this account (just as in all she writes), and in particular those of us who are white, is a truly rich Teachable Moment. We have an opportunity to reject the gift she's given, to see it as an attack, respond with defensiveness, or thank our lucky stars that we weren't the subject of the story - or we can take the gift and unpack it.
What I want to respond to is not any of the details of this particular event or individuals, but what I took from it. I recognized myself in this story. I'm familiar with the desire to be the Good White Person. I've acted on the impulse to seek out people of color to give me their blessing, like a key to a special club where I feel absolved. It's an ongoing pattern about which I have to stay vigilant.
I've discovered through painful experience that the whole myth of the Good White Person is a trap. It's based on the false idea that racism is perpetrated by Bad people, rather than by all of us, participating in an institutionalized system which I didn't design or ask for but which benefits me at the expense of my sisters and brothers of color. It seeks to separate me from my white community by identifying some other white people as the problem. And it distracts me from continually examining where - not if - racism and privilege and unconscious bias are playing out in my attitudes and behaviors.
Trying to be a Good White Person also reinforces white centrality. I keep myself in the spotlight, focusing on my own need to stay comfortable. And it is at the cost of people of color, whom I have cast in supporting roles in a drama starring me. When I'm working - so hard! - at being Good, I can't actually listen to what people of color are saying.
So this account makes me feel humbled and once again resolved to get back to work. Because I, too, am completely and fiercely committed to ensuring that all our children can see themselves reflected and honored and celebrated in the books they read. And I know that being a Good White Person isn't going to help get us there.
Hi, Debbie,
ReplyDeleteI just want to say that I enjoyed meeting you on Tuesday evening, and was looking forward to it all day. I don't believe these are dangerous times to be publishing for young people, I don't believe writers are being censored by publishers in what they write (that's not my experience), and I do believe writers are getting published when they write outside their cultures. I did say that wielding power for personal gain can be dangerous, and that thoughtful, critical, informed discourse is important. My experience of the conversation was different from yours. We bounced around all over the place with different topics, weaving in and out. Everyone laughed a lot. I had a good time. I was glad to be included. I agreed with you that these are exciting times to be publishing! They are. I still think you should write the book about the Occupation of Alcatraz.
My best, Debbie Wiles
Deborah Wiles: That response is troubling to me as a reader of this thread. It seems like you're trying to get yourself off the hook by saying, "That wasn't my experience. You're wrong; my memory is right. End of discussion." You're privileging your memory and experience over Reese's, your interpretation over hers. And you're using your "experience" as an excuse to refuse to engage with someone who is saying to you, "That was racist! That was wrong!" Ultimately, I don't think it matters if Debbie's experience matches your own or if your memories of the dinner are completely different from hers. She has presented a pretty compelling account of her experience of the evening...and you are pulling the "my experience is different" card as a means of getting out of the larger conversation. Let's say that you're telling the truth and your experience really was totally different than that of Debbie Reese...you still have a responsibility (as an author making a living off the representations she creates and sells...not to mention that you are someone who claims to care about these issues) to have the discussion.
ReplyDeleteFurther, your reliance on your memory seems to be pretty self-serving and convenient: I've heard you say elsewhere that you "know" Raymond's voice in REVOLUTION is accurate/authentic because it's what you remember hearing as a child growing up in Mississippi in the 1960s. (Even if your memory of what you remember hearing as a child--and an outsider--50 years ago is accurate, what evidence do you have that these African American kids weren't performing "Black" in the ways they felt they were supposed to around a white girl? Just because you heard it--or remember hearing it 50 years ago--doesn't mean it's true). But more relevant to the discussion here is this: When people say to you that your characterizations are problematic, your response is, "My representation is based upon my memory of it, so I know it's right. I know it's true." Here, in this thread, your response is basically the same thing: "That's not my memory of the dinner and because I know my memory is right, this isn't a discussion I'm going to have." When do you stop hiding behind your memory and experience and confront the larger issues raised in these types of posts and conversations?
So just to be upfront, I'm a white (so far unpublished) author, and I'm sure my response here is being influenced by that. Debbie Reese, I apologize if I'm overstepping, I know that you will be able to defend yourself and respond to Debbie Wiles better than I can. I am feeling angry on your behalf right now. As a white author, I admit that I was not particularly uncomfortable reading the original blog post, though very interested and taking some mental notes on ways to be mindful of my white privilege. I am feeling uncomfortable now that Debbie Wiles has responded and I am seeing the same problem continuing in front of me.
ReplyDelete@ Debbie Wiles:
I'm interested that you decided to comment without actually answering the question that Debbie Reese specifically asked you: Why did you want to meet her? And you didn't shed any light on her other questions either, like, were you worried about her comfort, then or now?
Why did you bring up that everyone laughed a lot? To justify not noticing that Debbie Reese was uncomfortable? To try to assert that she couldn't have been uncomfortable or that the tensions weren't really there? Debbie Reese stated that she thought you were unaware of the tensions of the evening, and your own account agrees with that. She knows your experience was different. And she talks in this post about some reasons why your experience was different; she didn't speak up in the moment about her discomfort.
But she has spoken up now. Why was it your response to point out that everyone had laughed? Because that's striking me as a really tone-deaf response to what Debbie Reese has had the courage to come out and say here.
I'm also pretty confused by the wielding-power-for-personal-gain thing. Are you trying to say that minorities are somehow wielding power for personal gain when they criticize how white authors write minorities? What about the white privilege that allowed you to laugh and have a good time while Debbie Reese was uncomfortable but laughed along instead of rocking the boat - was that not wielding any power for personal gain in your eyes? I understand that you didn't realize what was happening, but that's often how privilege works. Now that you know, you have some choices to make about how you handle your power here going forward.
My "Team Reese" tattoo makes it impossible for me to pretend I'm a neutral party here...but if it makes a difference, Deborah Wiles, my recollection of that dinner is, in some ways, less generous than that shared by Debbie Reese. I, for one, was caught off-guard by the events that transpired; I was ill-prepared to engage in the conversations necessary. If I would have known ahead of time that there would be additional guests at dinner, I would have found a way to invite Jay Smooth to join us, as well (or I would have found a way for all of us to stream this video): https://youtu.be/b0Ti-gkJiXc. I think he could have helped many of us engage in this conversation...
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ReplyDeleteFirst, thank you for your bravery in posting this, Debbie. It inspires me to follow suit.
ReplyDeleteLike Anne Sibley O'Brien (whose comment is wonderfully kind and insightful), I am not going to comment on the particulars, but talk about the truth I hear here and how I too am seeing this trend you talk about:
"Deborah said, above, that "Sometimes in our (collective) zeal to "get it right" we point at a problem that isn't there." She means the people who criticized her for Ray's voice in Revolution. The dinner and Deborah's remarks are the latest in a string of events in which people in positions of power object to "fervent" people..."
What concerns me so much about responses like these is this powerful effect of quieting PoCs and marginalized voices and discounting the criticism. Those who are suggesting that "a problem isn't there" are insisting on their own experience as the ONLY valid experience. They have stopped listening. And in so doing, they are dismissing and minimizing the concerns of PoCs/marginalized people. In so doing, they are also continuing the institutionalized silence.
Thank you, Debbie, for noticing this trend and speaking to it.
Thank you for this post, Debbie. I was especially struck by your writing on that common story arc where a white character learns about a character of color through the course of a novel beginning with their treatment of his/her as "other" and how harming this is to young readers of color who have to wait throughout the book for a character to be humanized. I've often looked at how a novel ends--but, I now see that is too long to wait...and what would be the motivation for finishing that book for those young readers?
ReplyDeleteAnd, as a side note for all white writers/librarians/educators, if I was lucky enough to be sharing a meal with Debbie Reese or any authority on diverse youth literature, I hope that I would spend my time listening...and learning...and reflecting, not inserting myself into the conversation.
Sarah Hamburg said:
ReplyDelete"Thank you so much for this post, Debbie-- for its honesty, and for tackling these issues head on.
To Anne Bennett's comment, I just wanted to say: the idea that "an emotionally secure child should be exposed to the dirty facts of life" says, to me, that you are still imagining a white child as the central reader. It is a privilege to be exposed to the disturbing realities of racism solely through books, and by choice. I believe Debbie is speaking to this very tendency to center white children as imagined readers-- at the expense of children for whom a white author's depiction of racism does not reveal something new, but *does* often ask characters and readers of color to wait painfully at the margins while white people learn lessons. I think this is a profound question, and since your original post raising those questions, have been thinking about them a lot, Debbie. (And, as this post again addresses, they are not questions confined to books.) Thanks again."
Thank you for writing this! Everything here is so important to read. The entire conversation about diversity in literature has been centered around the thoughts and feelings of privileged writers for too long. Thank you for speaking about this, and speaking loudly.
ReplyDeleteI wanted to echo Anne Sibley O'Brien's comment and thank Debbie for her courage in posting this. I don't know the author or the book/s in question and wasn't present at the dinner, but, like Anne, I also recognized myself in the post. Because it can be uncomfortable to receive such criticism, we white writers often don't recognize the risks people like Debbie take when they challenge something we've said or written. They risk being ignored or dismissed, they risk being faced with anger and defensiveness, they risk exhaustion when they find themselves having to do this over and over again. But when I measure my own feelings of discomfort against the pain of misrepresentation and/or erasure of so many children in so many books, my discomfort doesn't seem nearly as important.
ReplyDeleteStory Number One: Years ago, I received a phone call from an “ethno-mathematician” who was writing a book called MULTICULTURAL MATHEMATICS. She had been looking for “Native American designs” and had found one that she thought would be perfect to illustrate the concept of “asymmetry”: a “False Face” mask. She asked me if it would be OK to use it; I suggested that she contact the Mohawk Nation. She later informed me that she had received the Mohawk Nation’s written permission to use the image, and faxed the letter to me. In the long, detailed letter, a Mohawk representative explained the sacred relationship between the people and the Medicine Mask and ended by suggesting that the woman follow her heart. I told her that that was not permission to use the image in her book; rather, it was trusting that she would do the right thing. She thanked me. A couple of years later, in a “multicultural” book display, I saw a book entitled MULTICULTURAL MATHEMATICS. In the book was the image of a Medicine Mask, labeled “False Face.”
ReplyDeleteStory Number Two: Jacqueline Woodson is one of my favorite writers and, when I received a copy of THIS IS THE ROPE: A STORY OF THE GREAT MIGRATION, I had an uneasy feeling—it was a picture book with a rope at the center of a Black family’s story from the Great Migration of some six million Black people from the south to the north between the early 1900s and the 1970s. I opened the book. There was an image of a little girl, skipping rope. I read: “This is the rope my grandmother found beneath an old tree a long time ago back home in South Carolina.” I put the book down, opened it and put it down again. That evening, I picked up the book and read it to the end. It’s a beautiful book, in every way. And yes, the rope symbolized just what I thought it did. All the major reviewers praised THIS IS THE ROPE, and not one mentioned what the rope represented. Not one. I later handed the book to my son, who happens to have autism. He read it. I asked him what it was about. He said, without hesitation: “Lynching.” A few weeks later, I attended a conference at which Jacqueline was the keynote speaker. Later, she told me that she wasn’t surprised that the reviewers hadn’t “gotten” the symbolism. “Of course,” she said, “there wouldn’t have been the Great Migration if there hadn’t been the lynching.”
What do these two stories have in common? They remind me of so many situations I’ve encountered involving children’s books. They’re about people who privilege whiteness and power, and when they’re called on it—as Debbie has done so many times, so courageously—they all want to hear what they want to hear.
Thank you, Debbie.
I hadn't commented on this yet because so far, everything I'd thought had already been said much more eloquently than I would be able to say it (looking at you, @Anne Sibley O'Brien).
ReplyDeleteBut, leapin' lizards, I have to say THANK YOU, @Beverly Slapin, for sharing these stories--especially the one about THIS IS THE ROPE. Because I read THIS IS THE ROPE and it never. occurred to me. that it was about lynching.
I almost didn't write this comment because frankly, I'm ashamed that I missed that symbolism ("I'm one of the good ones, aren't I?"). But it's important for me to remember, as Anne Sibley O'Brien so rightly names, that I am not a Good White Person. This is not a question of good and bad. It's about power--who's got it, and who doesn't.
As a white person, I have immense power and privilege, and one of those privileges is that I get to be educated by people like @Debbie Reese and Ms. Slapin, who put themselves on the frontlines and face tremendous risk by doing this educating. Thank you all so, so much for the work you do, for the gifts that you give us, and for the fact that you continue to give them, no matter how often we white folks prove just how undeserving we are.